My Thoughts:D

2010-11-06T16:04:00.002+08:00

Whassup everybody.
Alright, this blog will officially become my personal blog to crap my feelings on. Yeup.

Ok, things happening today:
I need to eat medicine now.

Done. ( I HATE PILLS )

Fighting with bb now. I hate to do this.
I just don't like to be called a name I thought was special to me. But it seems like it wasn't for me.. A name I thought that represented me only, the name that I thought that could only belong to me. It wasn't the case at all.

I miss you? I love you a lot? Yeah, sure I do. We hadn't meet with each other for more than a week now. I miss you badly, I love you terribly. But yet, everything seems to be a lie. You say that to every friend I guess. But I don't. I only love those I really love. Don't expect me to "love" an anon. Yeah, I might not "hate" the person, but I'm certain, I won't love him/her as well.

I understand where you're coming from. I know, to you, a name is just a name. Something to call a person, but you truly are calling from your heart. I understand that. But, have you tried understanding me? I guess I'll be happy if you had tried. \^-^/ That I wanted a name that was only special to me, some name that you only call for me, a representation that I had a place in your heart, and a significant one. I'm being possessive, I know. What can I do? It's my character, it's time you had realized that. Being with me is pressurizing, I can shower you with all the love I have. I can make you happy. But, I would want all your attention when I needed. (FCP much?)

Me:"Goodbye."
You:"Bye."

That's all I left with. Looks like my phone will be silent for a while..

2010-10-12T18:10:00.003+08:00

PROMOS ENDED. LIKE YAY.

okay, went popeyes with my friends for the afternoon, came back alone ._.
was thinking of rubbish on the train and started crying -.- It was stupid, yeah i know.
buuuuuuht whatev! :D

So I was just thinking of my, life?
Screwed promos, probable retaining yeah? Then, my friend started messaging me that she wanted so cry. So I cried on th train because of just that one message. I don't know actually. Maybe we're too close, so I feel what my friend feels. Or maybe just because I'm deeply in love. IDKIDKIDK :DD

I think I am, maybe I'm not. Shucks. Better think about it seriously tonight.
yepyep.

but anyway, I do love you lots and lots. More than what you imgagine. Don't leave me.
But this idea of me retaining, and you promoting just ears my heart.
We'll no more be of the same level. I'll be down there and yo'll be up there. If I ever promote next year to JC2, I wouldn't know how I'll go through my JC life without you. You've been giving me tonnes of support, joking with me, talking with me, crying~ If I ever leave you,
How can I always look forward to math and econs lectures so that I could catch a glimpse of you?
How can I always go to the cafe just hoping I would see you there?
How can I spare the thought that, I wouldn't be able to hug you anymore?
How can I, to be away from you, if you were ever alone?
How can I stay back to study just to be with you? Gah, remember that time you made me cry by running off with that person, leaving me alone, for 1.5 hrs, in THAT classroom.
How can I still enjoy lectures if I know you won't be around anymore...

I'm being all sad and teary now. I seriously don't wanna be apart from you.
If I ever do (which will most probably happen).. I think I'll just cry like mad.

All those promises we've made, soulmates.
Never to be apart, will always be there for each other..
I..
seriously have no idea anymore.
Sometimes, I love you so much, I could just smile and think of you the whole day.
Sometimes, I hate you so much, I cry for you the whole night.
I'm confused.

Baby, please, let us not be apart. I still wanna be with you, together.
Even if you make me jealous.
Even if you get angry at me.
But, we'll still be together, and that's what matters.

Bb, saranghaeyo.
I'ld love you no matter what.
Take my heart, I left it with you.
Forever, forever, saranghaeyo, na ae sarang.

(I SOUND CLICHE.)

2010-09-27T21:09:00.002+08:00

facade-the things i do to make you smile when I'm feeling terrible while doing it.

love-reason why i put on a facade.

reason-you

you-are by one and only.

only-you're special, you truely are.

chinggu, yeongwonhi saranghae.
i love you.

2010-09-26T21:55:00.000+08:00

Alright.
Had a freaking bad weekend.
Firstly, my period is fucking painful.
Secondly, the first problem just bugs me over and over again.
Third, there's chem tutorial tomorrow.

And holy shiet, I accidentally clicked on a disastrous Jongkey fanart.
I need to, idk.

Srsly fans, they don't do THAT.
Now that image's stuck in my mind.

Have to go clean my brains brb.

screwed.

2010-09-12T19:49:00.001+08:00

freak.
I followed a twit.(twitter) after I googled for *ahem*
After so long, i only found not, it's not that person.
fml.

2010-09-12T18:08:00.003+08:00

Just passed my 600th post like THAT *snaps finger

Right.
I got a nervous-ache-in-tummy now. Arggggh.
Great. First I didn't do much during the holidays for goodness's sake, and EVERYTHING resumes to normal tomorrow, school life, that idiotic chem teacher, PW, all that shitty things.
And f, Im spending my whole 3,4 days just messaging and waiting for messages. Like, WTS. My promos are damn f-ing near and I'm still lazing around. Seriously, I don't think I can pass my promos anymore.
I hate my life. No, I hate the bitches and exams that screws it up.

Stop everything, just stop. Just...stop.

哦我刚才发现到我可以打华文。
好呗。

我把我以前存的思想都发出来。

---unknown date---
好累，真的好累。。

今天以为，我会坚强，不会哭。
当在等巴士时，我一直在听伤感的歌。
有一首，特别扣人心玄。

让我照顾你－张芸京。

“让我照顾你
面对在大的风雨
也能微笑做自己
像个孩子躺在我坏里”

就突然非常非常非常想要有个男朋友来给我靠靠。真的，今天很无助。感觉很空虚:
今天怎么没星星。。
这样的忍泪到家，然后下车在走回家时拼命听high歌。
在家里，我不能伤心。
我不能流泪
我不能亲诉
我不能真正的开心吧。。

今天就是一个很伤心很伤心的一天。
阿。。难受阿。

---another unknown date---

又是新的一个月。我很怀疑自己，能不能升级。我不想继续累了。

我的爱，会跟着我陪伴我吗？

我在想，我的爱，既然不能实现，我把他改为一种动，一勉励我的一种推动吗？因为阿，某一直都在我身边鼓励我，相信我。我也不可以辜负了某的希望。那么，我，就为某，而努力吧？加油！

---today---
某，我真的真的好爱你阿～～～～～
爱到那种疯狂，无法自拔的地步。我不要:(
可是一部分的我很想要爱！
我喜还爱的感觉。
它，很甜蜜。。让我感觉自身在一堆粉红泡泡里。一种非常期待明天，让我有希望走下去的感觉。尤其是，因为你在握需要的时候都会在那里支持者。不管我苦的多惨，都是你在安慰我，可能也是因为我之跟你一个人说。^o^ 你那种照顾，不停的撒娇，让我深深动摇。爱，常常彼此你说。
“爱你阿～”
“宝贝爱你哟”
“傻瓜！快点去休息！”
“去吃饭”
“给。我。去。睡。觉！”

这些简单的提醒，纯纯的是。。一种很基础的关心，每一次，都把我的心融化成一滩。。一滩薄荷巧克力。。？那是我最喜欢的口味。哈，跟这个没关系。
对啦，都把我融化。
心中暖暖的，被包裹着一层，爱。

未来无限可及，因为这种陌生，才会期待。
但因为这种陌生会害怕。
因为你，模糊的未来更清晰。
因为你，要承受的苦，都显得更甜。
因为你，伤心不再伤心。
但好像因为你，我才伤心。
但有了你，我从伤心走出。

好了，澄清。
我不在谈恋爱。真的。正处于单恋。
我们虽然是朋友，但想要更多。你明白吗～？
不知道不知道！！
不要试着解开我想说有不想说的秘密！因为，只有你，唯一的你，才配得上我的爱。

I love you.

2010-09-08T22:04:00.000+08:00

600th.

Arggh, stressed. OM, WR, PME.
No sleep tonight.
Fuck me.

2010-09-08T02:25:00.000+08:00

What am I thinking, I was researching on young people and children, I switched tabs and read young people and chickens.

ONEW SANGTAE IS GETTING TO ME.

2010-09-08T01:27:00.002+08:00

i just nosebled from this

Alright, proceed :D
I HAVE to learn that dance! omgomg, it looks so nice! (with key dancing) I havent watch the real MV yet. xD

I srsly wanna dance. Nw's like in the middle of the night =="
OK, do pw. Gahhhh.

2010-09-07T09:47:00.001+08:00

im gna be late D:

<3

2010-09-06T20:28:00.000+08:00

In love, out of love, in love, out of love.
Current: halfway.

bb, please be by my side.

2010-09-06T01:19:00.000+08:00

I want yawwww messagggeeee.

2010-09-05T21:59:00.001+08:00

this is love

2010-09-05T21:33:00.003+08:00

firstly
shall start eradicating my addiction off YOU.

and secondly, start my jjong addiction :D

omgomgomg, jjong and his lips.
him and his formal wear. gawwwd.
aww, bb please stop growing muscles, it's expolding, i dont want you to be kim jong kook. Your muscles are fine (and sexy) ^^~

message for jonghyun: you've been my motivation for so long, just want you to know that there're millions of shawols out there cheering you on(me included). jonghyun appa, let's make memories. (:

2010-09-04T12:02:00.000+08:00

It's always YOU.

2010-09-04T11:09:00.000+08:00

Gawd.
I better stop thinking about love that darned thing and concentrate on my work ):

2010-09-01T20:01:00.002+08:00

dedicated to you.

Baby, you've been my source of motivation. I know I've been yours too(:
I love you, I'd love to be with you every second, to take care of you when you're not feeling well, to be the first to know your thoughts and secrets, and to serenade to you with my horrible voice.

You know, I've been thinking about, how nice would it be, for us to dance together, eat together, spend quality time with each other. It's only been one day, but I already miss your smile, your words, your smell. [I sound like Edward Cullen]

Even I may not be together with you, the feeling might disappear, but since I'm madly in love with you now, I shall just take a chance to tell you how much I love you.[I'm incoherent sorray]

Baby, I can't measure the love for you. I don't know how much either. Oh well.
It's just, I'll always be ready to help you. You make me think so much about you. You know how sweet your messages are. I want to take care of you. You know how much I worry for you when you fell sick?
You said you'll sing for me. You'll dance with me, even if you're 同手同脚. We'll dance the kpop songs anyhow!

Oh gosh, this post is so love. I don't know why, a sudden surge to express :/
baby baby baby i really~~ love you.
/love pain.

AHHH I MUST STOP THE LOVE THING AND STUDY. RIGHT. BYE.

2010-09-01T14:28:00.002+08:00

caution: provocative

I just yt-ed lady hee hee.
whataya call it, i can't even.

pretty extreme. but he did it better than lady gaga. :/
firstly, he doesn't wear heavy makeup
secondly, i like guys with nice legs
thirdly, I LOVE HIS HEELS.

ohgosh. i feel ashamed to be a girl.

2010-09-01T14:01:00.000+08:00

cause of my tears.

2010-08-29T22:16:00.001+08:00

I have to get back with my life, my jjong, and all.

Confused.

2010-08-29T21:26:00.002+08:00

Oh no, everything's just coming so quickly.

My life is seriously in a mess.
My studies are, okay.. Managed to do the tests this week.
But the other portion of me, my heart, is not okay.

To my baby who will not read this:
I'm confused.
I lied.
I'm sorry.

That lie I made, has to be covered by more and more lies. But I would still have to do it. Cuz I don't wanna lose you. It's so complicated now.
Every since we talked yesterday, I'm fearing tomorrow.
What do I say when I see you?
What can I do?
I know you trust me, with your deep, darkest secrets. I told you mine as well. And we found out, it was the same secret we've been holding on in college. You're my soulmate, my friend.

I told you, the stars were crying for us yesterday.
Today, there are no stars.
Where did the stars of hope go?

You know, baby, we had great affinity.
We were in the same orientation group, though I didn't talk to you much.
We signed up for CCA's together, I didn't know how that happened.
We got into the same CCA together, and went for exco selection together.
We got closer after I became a SHAWOL.
We wrote stories together.
We shared our pain.
We took care of each other.
We had awkward moments together.
We shared hugs <3

now, i'm just confused.
I, don't know.

2010-08-28T12:57:00.000+08:00

OMG JONGKEY ;_;

continue the love bb. <3

2010-08-22T20:01:00.000+08:00

Shit, agony. /headwall

2010-08-22T19:02:00.001+08:00

freaking pissed.

2010-08-22T18:20:00.000+08:00

Went for filming today, successful.

Loads of homework undone, 3 tests coming up the week unrevised, still doing PW.

Somebody kill me! ARGGGH.

2010-08-20T23:00:00.000+08:00

bb happy birthday ^^

-jjong is mine :)

2010-08-20T19:50:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, I wonder if I had chosen the right path. When everything suddenly just surges up together, in such a dilemma disposition and yet there is no way out.

Seriously, it's so suffocating for me now.
No matter how hard a try, you said I didn't.
No matter how much I tried, you asked me to give up.

Please, mom, for once, will you just, encourage me and give me the strength to continue? I don't want the sarcastic remarks. I don't want your spiteful comments. All I want to feel, is just "daughter, you've worked hard, you can do it." Maybe it's too difficult for you, but.. just a pat on my back?

Really tired, really tired of crying. What other choice do I have? I only got to cry, pick myself up and walk once again. Every barrier will be a step closer to my future success(?). I hope I can carry on.

2010-08-15T23:15:00.000+08:00

gotta reblog.

the muzit: BTS part 2, lots of jongkey madness.
COMEON, KISS IT.

2010-08-09T12:51:00.001+08:00

MY MOM IS SINGING RING DING DONG, though it's all wrong--

2010-08-06T16:57:00.002+08:00

2010-08-06T12:30:00.001+08:00

Oh no, after having SO many bad days in a row, I cried (as usual==)

And then I became happy again. :)

Random but.. whatever, it's MY blog. :D

2010-08-02T23:31:00.000+08:00

omgosh, tired.

2010-08-01T10:15:00.001+08:00

Post random things:

No cats today due to rainy whether.
Selling of USB "massagers" right here.
I'm digressing.

2010-07-30T20:18:00.001+08:00

累了，我真的累了。

2010-07-29T15:31:00.002+08:00

Alrighto, blog a bit before I start doing my CCA project.

Still in school now, being realllllyyyy moody.
CUZ, I've got back my results.
Ha-ha. I got U's for 4 subjects. Great now I feel like crying.
Stop emo, no, no.

Okay, time to digress all I want. Opened my email, SO many SHINee updates that I can't see due to homework, did peep a bit to make myself feel better. Jonghyun cheers me up.. abit. :/

So far I've been trying to make myself work harder, did kinda succeed by doing my econs homework every night. Howeva, I still can't manage to finish because of all the procrastination. MUST STOP PROCRASTINGNATING.

Maths kinda okay, I guess.
GP totally screwed. Chose the wrong question for my essay paper ):
Physics.... yeah. Whataya think.

Alright, no mood for blog. Let me be sad, will ya?

2010-07-27T20:20:00.002+08:00

Random:
I have a thing for-

1)Teeth
2)Jawline
3)Veins
4)Eyeliner
5)The way he wears jeans and shows his bellybutton~

I might rate my blog R21 someday, it's getting pretty sexual.
-SHINee makes me go Ring Ding Dong.

2010-07-27T20:11:00.002+08:00

See how sexy he is, how can I ever get offline?

Gahh, it's called, sexual frustration.

2010-07-25T21:06:00.000+08:00

I MUST STOP TEMPORARILY FOR MY SHINEE ADDICTION.
It's killing me.
Literally.
IO got econs test tmrw and I didnt study.
EFFFFFF.

2010-07-24T13:22:00.002+08:00

Hellos everyoneeesss (:

Finally a time to blog!
Yest: Ultimate gastric pain attack. Skipped PE~
Went home and went on comp till 12+?
Was like, desperately finding for a Lucifer Taemin pict for my mom.

Today:
Woke up and had breakfast, danced like crazeh.
Back to find the the picture. FINALLY. I found one.
"MOMMY! Come and see, boy or girl :DD"
"Huh, why you show me shampoo bottle?"
"=.= go bring your spects~"
"Aiyer, female? Why look like that one."
"MALE! Haha, pretty right, pretty right?!" *sense of accomplishment*
*walks away*
I: ......

Aha. <3

Was refered by my yeobo to a tumblr site, quote: "All things about SHINee and wrong"
IT WAS SO WRONG !@#$%
Haha, but it was funny.

I should cool down about my jonghyun fever. Chillax.
Jonghyun is like, handsome, looks like a cat.. and.. he got great body, so if I stop thinking about him i can...
*rambles on and on about his imperfections*

ILKJH!
Mehrong bb (:

Haha, watch out those pants. It makes SHAWOLs go crazy.

2010-07-22T22:35:00.002+08:00

My life:
Sleep,School,SHINee.

SHIT ME FOR MISSING THE ORDER FOR LUCIFER. !@#$%&

haha, epic smses for today:
Me: Ahhhh, I still have to slog my guts out for PW. Fk me. (sorry, bad mood)
Friend: Fk you? Bring it on. ^^
Me: Aiish==

I WANNA BUY LUCIFER! It's only $18. Okay it's expensive but ITS CHEAP.
What the hell am I saying.
I don't care!~
AHHHHHHHH! !@#$%&
Pissed==

SHINee, SHINee, SHAWOL, SHAWOL. <3
LUCIFER, LUCIFER. (:
HAHAHAH, thank god my friends are here to let off my lucifer spazz.
I'll probably die by looking at the gold meerkat.
Jjong! <3

2010-07-19T15:52:00.002+08:00

SHINee's new album, LUCIFER is going to be out tomorrow!
Just heard 2 of their songs in the album, I'm gonna buy it when it comes to Singapore, if it ever does-,-"

Kinda like, shocked over the new Key's concept, he had shaved his right side of the head! Not totally, but, yeah, I'm waiting for his hair to grow back, soon ><
Jonghyun looks like a meerkat, but unfortunately(NOT) I still love him LOTS. Jonghyu neomu yeppo! Neh!~

Recently, STILL into fanfics, creating, reading, all jongkey <3
Haha, it opened me up to a whole new world of things! It made me discover a new side of me! ^^
Haha, they are not gay. Even if they are, I will still love them <3
SHINee, thanks for giving me so much strength, ILY always! Thankyou!
SHAWOLS forever :)

2010-07-12T20:21:00.002+08:00

owuh. I seriously dislike PW.
I forgot about my award ceremony,
I didn't go for senior's farewell,
and my stomach hurts.

but yes, thank goodness you're always there.
K! J love you always.
*fangirls*

2010-07-08T22:47:00.003+08:00

Came to blow dust away from my blog.

Life in a few words recently:

Fangirling.
CCA is wonderful.
Failed exams.
I hate PW.

Will blog soon, I hope.
And probably will be starting a Chinese blog too.
No Chinese input -.-

Zhong Xuan, Ji Fan, deng wo! <3

2010-06-14T20:19:00.001+08:00

Listening to Jaejoong's "footsteps" ( It's a song)

I suddenly reminds me of Sec 2. I don't know, it's a scary feeling. Something so far away. It's a weird feeling ):

2010-04-27T08:46:00.001+08:00

Sigh!~ Now in school, arrived at about 8.40 to do my PI, but, no ideas.

Hais, I better do now and get the load off my back ):

2010-04-26T09:58:00.001+08:00

Hiiiiii~~ In school library again. Doing my PI. SIANS.

Going to have Chemistry practical now. SIAN.

Still got homework. SIAN.

SIANSSS!!!

2010-04-24T07:52:00.002+08:00

Woohoo. In school now, trying out the wireless network! Haha, brought my netbook here. ^^

Going to discuss The Gpp for PW later, then have to do my homework.. Sighs, still got like tonnes of homework waiting for me to do, since last week. Urggh..

There's a bird shouting,, so noisy.

Alright, haha. Don't know the group members will arrive on time or not :x

Oh yeah, about yesterday's speech day :D

Got my prize of a miserable $15, lol, then had 2 servings of dinner. Then, had a chat session with Ke Li <3

Hahas, met Andy today at MRT.

Alright, one of my group members here already, gtg! Bye~~

2010-04-22T21:08:00.000+08:00

AHHHH, shitloads of homework to do ):

Just got my PW groupings today, not bad not bad [:

Hope everything goes well in out discussions! Jiayou everyone <3

2010-04-21T20:41:00.001+08:00

555th post.
So many homework. But I love school.
Going back school on Friday for speech day. Looking forward (:
Anyone to come? Have free food i think.
Haha.
Bye!

2010-04-11T20:41:00.002+08:00

hi! Finally finished my PW work. Arggh.

I'm sweating all day long because I don't have a fan in my living room!

Just webcam-ed with a person I never talk to for..2 years?

I still got maths tutorial.

I have to wake up at 5.45am tmrw for 2.4km run. I know I'll fail, but still must wake up so early. Zzzzzzz.

I need more !~

2010-04-11T12:37:00.001+08:00

Alrighty! Need do alot homework :D

2010-04-07T18:48:00.003+08:00

Hi, hi, hi. Update while I've got the time before dinner xD

Alrightys, "kinda" don't wanna go Australia already, Taiwan!!~~ It's like 8 days and sooo much cheaper! I WANNA GOOOOO!!!

I'm SO going to Taiwan! HEHEHE

Shall cancel my application to Sydney. :/

There're like, so many others in my class to go too ^^ Yayness, best pals <3

I hope I can go with my sec school friends too, it'll be much much much more fun. [[[:

Siaoyi's going Japan! ^^ Muahaha!

Alright, gonna have my dose of drama!

NACHO CHEESE! muahaha. dont say i copy because i started watching annoying orange before the passion fruit ep was up. HAHAHA

WAZZZZZZUP <3

2010-04-04T20:01:00.002+08:00

Eh heh! Haven't been uploading *oops*

Nothing much actually. Tests are over, not sure will pass or not.

Still got homework to do, sians,
school's tomorrow.

I love school, I just don't like thew homework ):

Yay, handed my registration for econs trip to Australia~ I wish somebody in my class will go with me. haha~

Alright. I need to have more self discipline~!

2010-03-22T21:52:00.001+08:00

Eyes going close, 7.30 am lesson tmrw, SIAN! Tired ):

2010-03-19T15:08:00.002+08:00

I have to wait 1 week for my drama ~~ It's still playing in Korea ):
Can't wait~~~

Have to do my homework D:

2010-03-18T13:57:00.001+08:00

I hate it when I can't finish my drama! >:(

2010-03-15T20:21:00.000+08:00

I finished my PI! Hahahaa! DRAMA TIME! HOORAH!

2010-03-13T15:06:00.002+08:00

Slept for 15 and half hours! I was so tired D:
Watched Alice in wonderland on Thursday with Cat, Ke Li, Kai Sheng and Norvin on Wednesday. Wasn't a great movie.

Borrowed P.S I love you from school library. Not nice too.

Went home yesterday and met Kai Sheng on MRT. Talked about laptops.

Came home and ate authentic Korean noodles :D Was so spicy but greeeaaat. Slept very early and didn't wait for my supper.

Slept till morning and had one more Korean ramen. And went to sleep again :x

Woke at 2, ate lunch. Omg, felt like whole day= Eat sleep, eat sleep.
I'm a PIG! D:

2010-03-10T21:21:00.003+08:00

omg, my eyes are like 3/4 closed, so don't blame me for mistakes in the post.
(see i so dedicate ;P)

yesterday had like conditioning PE, ran like 8 times across the field. Aching muscles.

Rained today morning,yay!

Took my math test. Was okay.

Went for editing for CNNY. Kinda fun, thought was playing on my friend's iPod.

Homed, ate, blogged, facebooking.

Cheers!
Horoscope says I'll have an interesting person whom I like, would I?

2010-03-06T18:41:00.002+08:00

Had sports carnival at kallang shore garden. I took part in maths trail. Ran around at the stadium, lost ):

But our class super pro in sports, dragon boat first, rugby won, frisbee too ;]
Class was first [:

I did badly ):

Had outing with most of the 1013 peeps. Had quite a fun day, had pasta mania and watched people bowl. Went home after that. Had a great time laughing my head away with "magic tricks" and spasm faces. LOL.

Got home with quite a lot of goodies. Bought some cake-like thing from korean supermarket, the one I ate in Korea. Ahhh, reminiscence.

<3

2010-03-04T20:35:00.002+08:00

I've got a KKH appointment tomorrow, may not be going to school! Yikes.

Tomorrow's A level results release. [: But I have to go back school to watch Azizan's performance.

Ahhhh. My heart feels weird nowadays. Have to check with the doc what's wrong ): Hope it's nothing. Wish me luck ))):

2010-03-03T19:29:00.002+08:00

yesterday: was late for my morning lesson, woke at 7 instead of 6, reached school in 45 minutes, 15 minutes late for class D:

today: kinda a bad day for me, lacked some encouragement. I will persevere!

Went to the briefing for Japan trip. Lacking interest in this one. Anyway the cost of the trip is more than 1K so i don't think I'll be able to go. Give other people chance [:

Was kinda in a bad mood so I MRT to Yishun. Bought a bag of chips and ate ate ate.

But a cat always cheers me up :D Lawrence's esky is cute! Munchkin :DD find it on youtube! And his house is like, super clean. I want a house like his!

Someone rent me a cat.

2010-02-28T19:08:00.002+08:00

Alright, this has got to be my best behaved day for the 16 years I'm born. I actually sat down and did my homework for about 5 hours non stop. From 2++ to 7. I'm really hungry, all my brain power used up my lunch.

But YAY! I finished PART of my homework, actually I was supposed to do it yesterday but I went to YJC's umm, funfair? Yeah, so I just did 1 chinese essay.

Haha, somewhat good news! I'm the PW rep! I have no idea what to do, but, it's cool 8)

Sigh, shit, I still have PW homework and some Physics left to understand. And more good news, I haven't studied at all the whole day. Plus I need more assessment books.

Had a good peice of Unagi cooked by my brother <3

So tired.

Tomorrow have to be in school by like 7.30am? Sososo tired.

2010-02-24T21:12:00.002+08:00

Ok, my emo time is over!

Alright, disaster for the day: I arrived in school at like 7am, thinking there was chinese lesson, but there was none. I felt so stupid I wanted to cry. I missed 1 and half hours of precious sleep.

I cant understand my Econs. I wasn't following the lecture cuz I was dozing off. Shit me.
Whole day feel very light/heavy headed. Had headache. Stupid.

I am like so assed. I'm like attracted to 2 guys at the same time now. Yeah, I change pretty fast, just mini-ahems.

But I still feel ugh. Not used to having 2 wheeets at the same time. Can have heart attack.

But yay, he talked to me ;] *melts*

Alright, I'm like going crazy over guys, that's my way of relieving stress I guess. But I don't pounce on them or anything, hah.

Heard from a few that I changed?
Ke Li: Wa you so brave! Talk to him!
Kenneth: Haha, first step to going out late.
Primrose:I love your EWWNEEFOOORMMMM!
Brother:Wa thought you pig one, now can't finish a box of sushi.

Yeah.
Shit, I've gotta stop this.

2010-02-19T17:13:00.002+08:00

1 word to sum up my day in school: EMO.

Alright, I felt very isolated with the rest of the school population, ugh. Hate it! Still not close with my classmates, and yet getting furthur from my OG friends AND my sec school mates. great great great, I'm gonna be like the most isolated and emo person in the whole school. Maybe I should like draw punky black eye circles to school on monday.

Took height and weight, grew 1 cm, gained like 3/4 kgs? Yeah, no big deal. I doubt I can possibly go down.

Had quite an interesting physics lesson today, muscular male physics teacher who talks about raindrops and spit, pretty interesting.

Totally loner on my way back, emo emo emo. Alone walking to MRT, alone taking MRT, alone walk out of MRT, alone take bus, alone buy snacks and alone take lift.

AHHHH, how I wish I was married.
Yeah no joke.

Bleah, it IS a joke.

But I'm thinking of it! How nice! Someone who could accompany me on MRT rides! Fantastic. Too bad I don't have the fortune like *ahem*

Yeah.

Ok, now at home, ALONE. Haven't bathe, don't feel like bathing, I stink, my mood stinks, I NEED A HUSBAND!

ARGGH.

2010-02-11T19:34:00.003+08:00

Hi Hi Hi!

Continued from last post, I didn't get scolded at all :D

HAHAHA!
Alright.

More and more outings with CONNOR9! Yes yes i love my OG. Readers must be bored by me already!

I DON'T CARE!!!!

Gonna camwhore tmrw, CNY CELEBS! GOING BACK TO SCHOOL!!!!!

2010-02-06T12:09:00.002+08:00

CONNOR 9 OUTING YESTERDAY!

Was in school until afternoon, and headed to Plaza Singapura for lunch and chit chat session. Ate at just acia [YUMMY] which had ice cream buffet. Though stomach hurts, but I love it ;P

Went to kopitiam after walking around the place and talking, around evening. Sat down to talk, take pictures. Few of them left.

So left Catherine, me, and 3 connor 9's left. And OMG. Another hilarious chatting session, laughed and laughed. And we went at like 10.45pm -.-"

Was struggling with gastric ache then, and I was worried parents scold! But to my surprise, my mom didn't say much. Wheeets. But I don't know what I'mg onna get from my dad today. Wish me good luck.

CONNOR VERY GOOD
CONNOR VERY GOOD
CONNOR CONNOR CONNOR CONNOR CONNOR VERY GOOD
WE UP UP VERY GOOD
WE DOWN DOWN VERY GOOD
WE UP UP DOWN DOWN LEFT LEFT RIGHT RIGHT ALSO VERY GOOD!

CONNOR 9 ROCCCCCKKKKS!

2010-02-01T06:33:00.002+08:00

It's now really early in the morning, 6.15am, a bit too early to prepare. hahas. Oh well, talk about yesterday!

Went out with my OG mates yesterday at Marina Square/Centre [the one behind suntec]. Watched them pool, and after a while we walked a very long way to popepyes chicken. Seriously, it's much better than K-C.

We took about 2 hours to eat, because we had a chatting session. Oh my gosh, I had a great time laughing and eating. I tried very hard not to choke on my food. Haha, such a fun day out [and I bought Catherine along with me :D]

I hope we could have more outings like this!!
The peeps in Connor9 rock [:

2010-01-30T08:13:00.002+08:00

Hi everyone~~

Yes, back from orientation day 2! And OMG, it was a blast! Although we were under the blistering afternoon sun at sentosa, I had fun nonetheless! It's a miracle how strangers can bond so easily! We even had a dinner outing together, though I didn't participate :x

Got to know my new friends better, got some of their numbers, cuz my phone was spoilt.

Talked to more new people in the group, know their names.

It was such a fun,fun,fun and great day out! Especially during the bus ride back to harbourfront. Gosh gosh, we're the nosiest people on the bus! Just like 4E5.

Guys there are much more matured than the (some of the) ones in Secondary School!

Great, I'm lovin' it [:

2010-01-28T20:31:00.001+08:00

Wheeeets. Got to orientation @ nanyang jc today, was funnnn :}

Looking forward to sentosa w. my new friends tmrw ;D Super cool eh?

connor 9, oei!

2010-01-26T09:09:00.002+08:00

Went Bugis with Cat yesterday :}

Had Lunch at a thai restaurant at first, Only $4 dollars and a very full stomach. "Bei Sheng Thai Restaurant" Right beside KFC chong pang. Great services, great food.

Went to Sim Lim to check out prices of Wii! I'm gonna buy it "someday". hahas. Yeah, best to compare prices there. It can vary $100 from one sop to another.

Went to Bugis Street, bought leggings and a lot of accessories. Though the clothes there was nice, not attractive enough for me to buy.

Had a time race with MRT back to Yishun, back home :]

I'm gonna go that that Wii!

2010-01-22T21:23:00.002+08:00

Went to Bodyworks and Science Centre today! It's such a fruitful afternoon! Saw all those displays, truly one of a kind, evgeryone should go see it! But please, respect them cuz they're from real people.

Yes, took a lot of pictures as usual, 111 picts altogether in an afternoon. Kinda amazing.

Had the worst shake MRT ride back home.

Ate vegetarian :] --Yes I finally look a bit slimmer on photos :D

Bing badabing!

2010-01-19T15:54:00.003+08:00

Recently obssessed with Hunter Parrish!

Yes! I finally found out what I like out guys !

1st- Smile. It needs to be nice, straight teeth, best if it's Veneers [: I'm getting one when I have the money >:]

2nd- Mostly guys that have have a nice peofile [side of face], very distinct jawline.

3rd- Eyebrows that are close to their eyes. Example, Show Luo and Mr Parrish.

4th- Oh well, looks sexy to me >:D

2010-01-13T22:29:00.003+08:00

I'm not a perfect person~~ Just thought of a song. Heh.

Right! Time for more strage facts about me!

1) I HATE people msging 1 syllable word! Like 'oh.' 'k.' 'thx.' 'hmm.' Yeah, you know who huh cat :/
2) No more!

Yeah, just feel like saying the first fact. Bleah.

Add on!
2) I love to use and clean chalkboards. It's so fun to see the powder being rubbed off ^^
3) I love to sweep concrete/tiled floors.

2010-01-13T15:13:00.001+08:00

Just got a call from ms rohini, I'm going for interview! About my 'secrets of success' =.=

Ok, I agreed. I have to do writeup. Arggh.

2010-01-12T20:25:00.002+08:00

Oh my! Went to Nanyang JC today, I love the school! The environment, the students! School starts at 8.30 on Mondays Tues and Weds, 9 on others. Isn't that greatttt!

Yesyes, I wanna go nanyang!

2010-01-11T20:52:00.002+08:00

Got my O level results back (((: Was kinda ok with it (:

Just because of my Ang Mor ):

But it's alright! I will do better next level of education! No feel to blog! BYEEE!

--Yayayayaa!!~

2010-01-08T21:05:00.003+08:00

YAY! Bought my eyeliner pencil at last :] Used with my Lip gloss for try out. Results are below --

I smile SO unnaturally. My mouth look like monkey..

But I like my eyes! I think I've done a pretty good job! I should have bought the pencil type first..

I'm happy with the results! ^^ Will TRY to go out with it :p

Went to SP and NYP's open house today. SP was a total bore, but I had lots of fun at NYP! Won lots of prizes and had a great time there :] Recommended! ^^

Kinda disappointed, didn't get the optical mouse. :( But it's alright, I've got a lot of things already xD

Time for EW-TEWB!

2010-01-07T21:18:00.004+08:00

Yo guys!

Went out to Novena with friends today :] Had a great time buying a lot of stuff! I bought 2 lip gloss, 3 boxes of fake eyelashes and a blouse. :] All these for less than $20. Woooots.

Thoughts for yesterday

2010-01-04T21:10:00.002+08:00

Couldn't get to sleep yesterday night, only fell asleep at about 5.30am. Felt really depressed and emotional. I was feeling neglected and left in a corner. Literally cried whole night, listened to a song which described my feelings yesterday. 灰色空间. Lyrics goes:

原来不是白就是黑　
只不过是天真的以为
要醉得清醒　要无辜的犯罪　
现实的世界只有灰

坚强得太久好疲惫　
想抱爱的人沉沉的睡
卷来的风暴　凶猛里有种美　
死了心　痛就没感觉
灰色空间　我是谁　
记不得幸福是什么滋味
无路可退　你是谁　怎么为我流泪

Was exactly how I felt.. Then I thought about 威廉, felt better and finally slept.

I was thinking who could I talk to in the wee hours, nobody. Had no courage to. Thought of messaging him, but..

Yesterday night was very awful! I was partially thinking- I hate being a teenager.

But I was ok after I woke up. Hormones I guess.

Alright, gotta get some drama diarrhoea. Poooooot!

2010-01-01T20:26:00.001+08:00

Happy New Year! 010110! Year of the 1's and 0's.

Went out to Orchard with Primrose today :] Went to catch Alvin and the chipmunks. Irritating kid laughing in the front seats..

Ate sushi dinner just now :P

Tired and happy (:

2009-12-28T16:06:00.002+08:00

Yay! He initiated conversation with me yesterday ^^ Although I really couldn't understand what he was talking about. He was totally flabbergasted! I don't know what's wrong with me. I was totally embarrassed -.-"

Went home and he said goodbye :p

Today's my off day! And I haven't bought the things I want yet.. 3 days left to end of working. :]

Time for youtube!

2009-12-26T16:24:00.003+08:00

Hi everyone!

Just went to Chong Pang to buy clothes around the night market. Bought $22 worth of clothes, 5 pieces. 4 tops and 1 bottom. Was only satisfied with my shorts and my singlet. ):

Had a trim my not-so-glorious crowning glory. Was a waste to see it go~ But it's come back to me one day :P

Just bathed and waiting to go work :]

More updates when I have something worth updating!

Cheers ^^

2009-12-25T11:37:00.002+08:00

A great day comes after a bad day. :]

Went out to my friend's house to chill out the whole day. End of the day took about 80+ photos, glam and unglam.
Went to CK to buy perfume, and finally finally finally the cute colleague I wanted to talk to talked to me! But I spoke like a machine gun firing wrong bullets. But I was happy anyway :]]

Next day he talked to me again! Though it was just a thank you.

Yesterday was baddd. Saw him walk into a mobile store. With those bad looking guys selling. Hopes dashed! Now he looks like a cat to me.

Bad day comes after a great day. What can I say..

2009-12-19T23:04:00.002+08:00

Bad day!

Was walking to work, then saw an old lady fell down. Ran over to offer my help, she refused so I went to pick her shoe. So I rushed to workplace [I was late] and bought sanitizing wipes. started work.

Was serving a customer when y senior pulled me again cuz I never put my wallet properly. Came back and apologised to customer and told me that my senior was rude. LOL. Yeah she was a nice lady, said "Study hard next time find a better job" haha!
When she went to pay she even wised me Merry Chrismas and Happy New Year! Well I felt better after that.

When I went to put my wallet "properly", my colleague, whose name I don't know, shouted " Hor chi dao ah", meaning you're late. I don't know he was shouting to me or who else. So I said where got late! Gave a confused and angry look and walked away.

Didn't feel like working today. Too many happenings.. I was thinking like "ah, I'm experiencing life" but at the same time, it was like why the hell am I doing this. Oh well, I get money for being bored, why not.

Gone for drama,drama,drama.

2009-12-17T12:24:00.002+08:00

Back at work :/

Thinking of asking someone to replace me at around mid January. Since I'm going to start school soon and all. Don't know if boss would agree though. Anyone want to offer? Girls only. :]

Alright. Getting kinda used to serving customers and the standing for a long time already. But I still kick my supper eating. I must stop. :[

Just broke my record of sleeping 13 hours today. Don't know why, just lazed and tada!

Alrightyy, off for more youtube :]]

2009-12-14T11:03:00.002+08:00

Angry Angry Angry!

I soooo regret working at my work place. !@#$% My senior told me got staff discount, i bought things for the first time, have. Then I just bought some household products today, I didn't have any?! The cashier was the manager. Stupid! Part time workers no discount you say? Pui! That equates to saying me, the part timer, is unimportant. I am huh?! I'm gonna quit!

Fish you! If not for the pay I'm not working here, no else benefits. It worsened my racism, it hurts my muscles, it's like going to school with all the rules shit, and I get no discount! I sound like a miser, yeah, try being poor before you say that.

You cheated my money, asked me to work even when I'm starting school, and I get no thanks for that? I'm sooooo wishing I've got a mafia backup to wreck the stall.

You piss me off, manager.

2009-12-06T13:29:00.002+08:00

HELLO EVERYONE!! [echoes]

Finally finished changing my blogskin, Was satisfied with this one :]

Alrights, some updates on my boring life.

3rdDec
My BIRTHDAY. Thanks to those who messaged me, wrote on my facebook :D Went to watch New Moon with my brother, saw Rachana in the same line of seats as mine, conincidence xD

After New Moon went to a Thai restaurant [the branch beside KFC Chong Pang] A must try! Good services and good food! Love the pineapple rice :D Ordered about 4 diseds, total only $18. Heh.

4thDec
Officially started work, as sales assisstant. Was kinda awkward dealing with customers and seniors. Was kinda afraid of the bad looking guys who came to buy jeans.

5thDec
Got to know more seniors! Talked to me quite well, and saw Catherine when I was at work.

Bad news about the job- Guaranteed muscle aches. Leg pain for standing for hours, and night shifters has to do closing[who is, unfortunately, me.].
Good news about the job- I got to know that I could take attendance with thumbprint, I get money, and.. no more I guess.

Yayness, I'm earning money :D

2009-11-26T09:20:00.003+08:00

Went out with Ke Li yesterday to velocity, novena square 2 and united square for a shopping trip ^^ Was fun! Got to see a lot of nice korean style clothes at square 2. Gonna return to buy someday :D

Bought a girls bluse for $16.90, double layered. Was quite satisfied, because the clothing was quite scratchy on the inside. But it's nice anyway :]

I've GOT to shed some weight! I'm an unbelievably 35.5 inches on my belly. Arggh.

Alrights! Gonna catch up on more dramas :p

2009-11-19T09:22:00.002+08:00

Alright! I've woken at 9am, first thing thought about is my blog. :D

But actually I have nothing to blog about ._. Wait, maybe I have.

About the special HIM! [Whom I'm giving up]
After dropping hints for the whole year, he doesn't seem to get it. Maybe he's just not interested in me. Oh well, time to move on.

Or should I confess? Arghh, I'm so mixed up! People said after O levels, just go, but.. something's holding me back. But what? My values, my principles, my parents? Don't know.

I hope he says first, but who am I? Do I deserve him? He has his worries as well I guess. I think I'll give it a go, since I won't be meeting him already.

Wish me luck :]

2009-11-17T13:03:00.003+08:00

Went AMK hub on Friday to watch movie, "My girlfriend is an agent" Super good! Went to shop around after that, didn't buy much things but it was a great time out ^^

Went to interview for my job on Monday, got told I could work the next day :D After interviw I went Suntec with primary school buddies, Bought DVDs and shoes! Had a tremendous time but also a great workout ): Legs ached badly after walking for whole afternoon, got worse next day.

Tuesday (Yesterday) getting ready to jo for job, unfortunately after bathing I kicked into a bucket and my broke in half! Bled till whole toe red :x Just put a band aid on and went out, pain! Went to job and met with manager, he forgot to ask me take IC, so I had to go home, I came back, he told me I couldn't work because I was under 16! I even got my locker already! Felt like burning his hair, but I just bought snacks and left. -.- !@#$%
Went home and Watched "black and white" with my brother :] He was as addicted as me! It's soooooo nice, though it's already my 2nd time watching. heh. Rushed to finish the DVD, 24 episodes. From morning about 8am to 3.30am! Finished watching and went to sleep.

Woke at 11.30am today! Maybe going for korean lessons online later :] On the 21st lesson! Yays~

Hahahahaa~ It's such glorious holiday :D

2009-10-26T11:12:00.000+08:00

Today's start of O levels. English. Slacking, relax first :)

Sigh, bored. Nothing to update.

2009-10-14T14:26:00.002+08:00

Eating prawn friend rice, yums :D

Today had a good laugh with friends in the library during lesson :DD

Upset at the low grade librarian.

Still hungry, need more rice ):

2009-10-11T00:22:00.002+08:00

Alright~! Now is 12.30 am.. I can already feel my pandas coming down.

2 weeks left to o levels, not worried yet. Though lagging behind schedule, will try to catch up tmrw :]

Cried a bit just now, I was imagagining me in korea again.

Craving for Bah Chor Mee, tmrw morning wake at 8 to go eat it, don't know if I'll be able to..

Just did my online checking of Chemistry, feel like banging wall.

Kind of having hallucinations now, better go sleep.
Jalga!

--Banish the thought of you from my mind!--

2009-09-18T23:40:00.003+08:00

Alright, just a teeny weensy post before going to bed.

Updates:
My essay wasn't compiled into the compilation, so disappointed ):
Prelims almost over.
I still hate her.
I'm currently watching Black and White[Taiwanese drama]--damn cool 8)
Going to sleep.

nighto!

--I think I should give up on you. It's probably time to let go..--

2009-08-28T21:48:00.002+08:00

Yayness! Finally able to login to stinkin blogger :D
Got tired of the L skin, gonna change it when I have the time [maybe like.. 4 months later..]

Anyways, update on my life: HOMEWORK EVERYDAY!
Typical Sec 4 student. I finished like 5 maths papers. Power :] Gonna do more for practice.

Had really weird dreams these few days, yesterday had a dream about going korea, again. Prbably the day before I was talking w. my friend about it. My dream was rushing for everything that I forgot to pack my luggage. Pretty lame dream, but kinda sweet.

Today: Ate at Mac w. Catherine, she went Joy Centre. Went back home, talked with brother and slacked around the house. Did my Chem paper 2. Now I'm ion front of compiter screen, not knowing when I'll turn it off.

I just had the urge to on comp and blog about korea. Reflections acutally, so readers[if any..] can quit the window now.

I was just thinking about the times in Korea, how much I've learnt and stuff. But somehow the memory still seems like a dream to me. Did I really go there? I know I did but I don't think I did either. Going there is a luxury.

Kind of upset that my buddy haven't reaply me, I know they're busy, but .. sad.
They're in high school now, heard from li shuan her buddy is in city now :]
But somehow it pricks my eyes to think about them, I miss them, a lot. I wish I could know what is going on around them, and I wonder if they are just as missing me as I do. [ IDK what happened to my english]

Happy 1st Year Anniversary to korea peeps:] Love yall so much [in korea].

2009-08-04T12:54:00.000+08:00

Mugging on the computer, literally.

2009-08-02T11:57:00.001+08:00

GAAAAAAAAAAAH.

2009-07-19T09:41:00.000+08:00

Ooh baby! I'm in high spirits today! :D --Oops, 7th month coming soon O:

I'm planning to join the Ngee Ann Camp with Primrose, maybe along with my class people =) Heeeee!~~ I'm too high now, I'm gonna dance!

Byeeeee peopleeeeee!

2009-07-03T21:10:00.002+08:00

Yes, I'm sick, again. 3 days before the o levels. Jin gao suay..

Went polyclinic, walked in hot sun and temp. reached 38.7.. The entrance guys there ask me got flu, etc. He took using the ifrared gun thing, give me mask, then he said, "Ok, I shoot you again ahh" I was like, lol. was he a terrorist..

Waited quite long, then went home eat, medicine, rest. Just now fever went upppp! I secretly took, 38.9.. So scared, didn't tell anyone. Exercised a little and now 38.0, Phew. Mom says if fever doen't go down will go KKH. Gurhhh.

Sighs. Now listening to MIKA songs, he's great! I love his 'grace kelly' and 'lollipop'. Try it :)

Alrights, gotta do some relaxationm heck care the oral. Nights.